So many thoughts on my mind, as I contemplate being in America for the seventh year. To spend the High Holidays and my favorite holiday – Sukkot – far away from where my soul is craving to be and where I truly belong… searching deep within myself for the spiritual and mental strength to endure and carry on for yet another year, when my mind is only alive when I am connected to Eretz Yisrael..
This year’s visit to Israel, home, was different from all the previous ones. My thoughts are still raw, and there is so much I want to say but can’t yet.
On the other hand, I feel the potential and blessing this year. The past 2-3 years have brought about explosive growth in my personal and professional life.
Things are coming together in new, unimaginable ways.
Sorting through 6 years of materials I’ve accumulated, I saw my old notes and thoughts, when I still did not know how it would all come together but had a sense that I was born for more than I was doing. And now I am on the path I was born for, with ever increasing clarity of what I have to do, when, how, and where.
Praying and hoping that this will be a year of tremendous growth, and that its potential and actualization will amaze my most wildest imagination. Because it is the fear of success that holds us back. It is the fear of the unknown, and the stagnation of the old and the familiar failure and pain, which somehow entice us more than the possibility of life.
On that note I will say – “may the previous year and its curses cease, and may the new year and its blessings begin”
תכל שנה וקללותיה, תחל שנה וברכותיה
שבת שלום ושנה טובה!
Erev Shabbat parashat Ki-Tavo 5779 / Sept. 20, 2019